Real Men

Real men are tough:
they are strong enough to take it,
no matter what life throws at them.
A real man stays in control,
when a pussy throws in the towel.
So man up, be tough, and you'll survive,
'cuz even if you struggle,
if you struggle hard enough...
eventually you struggle through.

Real men are loyal:
they know who they can trust
by who has proved themselves trustworthy.
A real man stands by his friends,
when no one else will help them.
So man up, and always be there for
the people who have helped you.

Real men are heroes: 
they stand up for those who are weaker than them,
and make sure that they do not come to harm.
A real man protects the people around him,
and takes action, if needed, 
to save the people and things he cares about.

Real men are honest: 
they say what they mean 
and they mean what they say.
A real man bares his soul 
to the people he trusts, 
and says what he needs to say,
and never pulls his punches 
when it comes down to what matters. 
So man up and face ther truth, 
no matter how much it hurts.

Real men are brave: 
and not just about the outside world.
Real bravery comes from within, 
and means feeling your fear and facing it,
and conquoring it with a warrior spirit; 
even if it is fear of the thing inside him.
So man up and conquor your problems.

Real men take responsibility:
for all their actions, good and bad.
A real man owns his behavior,
takes the consiquences like a man,
and makes amends when he has done wrong.
So man up and own your faults,
and work to make them better.

Real men have integrity:
they are true to themselves and their own nature,
and they don't try to be anything else.
A real man knows himself, 
and the things he stands for,
and rejects any temptation to stray.
So man up, and be yourself.
Because there's nobody else who can do it.

And from all these things, 
a real man earns his honor:
Loyalty, honesty, bravery, responsibility, and integrity. 
It is the core of what it means to be a REAL MAN,
and I am a real man, because I choose to be these things.

Permanent Results

Has My Personal Programming Produced Permanent Results?

Way back when I started this blog, it was supposed to be about my own personal masculinization journey through hypnosis.  Over time it has morphed into a venue for me to share my life as a hypnotist and my trances, but since I notice that we are coming up on 4 years since I got back into hypnosis by trying EMG's famous Curse: Porn Star Penis which led me to write Manhood Blessing and start this whole journey. I thought I might systematically go through my programming and see what results I had.   And oh what a spectacular journey it's been! I went from a versatile bottom who an oxford shirt and corduroy pants kind of guy to a long-haired, bearded biker metalhead who is a Total Top and Dominant Hypnotist.  It looks like I got Manhood Blessing's promise of becoming a "masculine, dominant alpha male" in spades.

Demonstration of my Alpha Male attitude... 

Present Hypnotic Context

 I thought now might be a good time to assess my hypnotic progress because, unusually for me, I have just gone over 3 months without a single trance to any of my files... Long about the end of April 2018, my (now former) husband Steve started having mental health problems that centered around delusions of external mind control, so I stopped sleep trancing because it was triggering him.  After 6 weeks of mental health drama my then husband offered me a divorce and I took it.  (click link for more info) Had a beautiful last anniversary on June 9th, and moved to Pacifica, CA two days later.  I have been waiting to stabilize in my current context before I resume hypnosis, so this is one of the few times since I started back to hypnosis that I have been able to assess my programming in the absence of continuing reinforcement. Short story is that after 3+ years of sleep trancing to my files the effects of most files have become completely permanent.

In particular, moving in with an avid fisting bottom has made Fist Top Trainer come to life like never before, with me fisting on a daily basis and fully enjoying the experience of having my hands in several different guys night before last when I fisted 7x at the Friendly Fire fisting party.  My roommate has done the equivalent bottom file, Anal Fisting Trainer, and has gone from being able to take it to the wrist to being close to getting my whole hand through his innermost sphincter.

Multiple Personality Update

Perhaps the easiest update is on my multiple personalities.  The new social context has been surprisingly non-disruptive with everyone still present and accounted for.  My hypnotist alter has been whining about us not making trances because the computer we work on is not set up yet, but has gotten to do live hypnosis 3 different times on both our new roommate as well as straitjacket brainwashing Beast's acolyte.

Wanna get brainwashed like this? Hit me up on my Tumblr chat

Likewise my Programmable Robot is still at my service, and has been getting more out time than usual given the huge amounts of housework to be done in the new context of living with a roommate who is away a lot.  

My demon alter Beast, who is a natural alter that I have had since I was 16 years old, but on whom the demons in Your Inner Demon / Low Life and related files is based has been unusually active lately since we are now in a social context where our current partner is open devil worship is permitted. The  files have produced a large contingent of demonic followers and Beast is pleased to have brought over 200 men to Satan through our files and we have more than 2 dozen active acolytes who we stay in contact with on a regular basis, one of whom submitted a script about getting Fucked By Satan that was so good we recorded it.

Beast actually got to do worship and blasphemy in person recently including stomping on a crucifix and cumming on the dismembered Jesus after ass fucking the acolyte pictured above for over two hours.  Besides Butch, Beast is the most active alter in the system and prays and practices satanisim on a pretty much daily basis.

Butch, my Manly Spirit alter is still with me and totally OK.  In fact, in the new context of living somewhere with a gym within walking distance the combination of Manly Spirit and Weightlifting and Stretching Compulsion has made it such that Butch basically lives in the gym.  He comes out to talk and fuck on a regular basis and is basically the same guy he's been since we started and has had great fun being the man about the house fixing things and putting furniture together.  

Workout Progress

Even after 3 months of no reinforcement, Weightlifting and Stretching Compulsion still sends me to the gym daily.

Though we have stopped doing the little white pill ritual, our testosterone levels have remained high ever since we started on Hypnotic Steroids, though it's kinda hard to tell if the effects are from that or the independent testosterone producing suggestions in Manhood Blessing, Weightlifting, and Jockstrap Penis Growth.  The compulsion to stretch and lift weights is still going strong, sending us to the gym on a 5-6 day a week schedule and making us stretch 3x/day as designed.  

Overall, the progress on our body over the last 4 years has been nothing short of amazing.  We started the period in question at a tweaker-skinny 133lbs, which has slowly gained up to 150lbs of solid muscle with practically no body fat.  Waist has stayed at 30" while our arms grew from 18" with no biceps to speak of all the way to a 21" flex with a large bicep and visible triceps even when we're not actively flexing.

Initial lifting weight (way back in December of 2014) was a pathetic 12lbs; we were lifting 38.5lbs at home in Tahoe before we left but Butch has made considerable progress at our new gym we are lifting 45lbs per hand and 80-90lbs on bilateral exercises like the bench press and squat. We sport 6-pack bordering on 8-pack abs now and have consistently kept them despite a terrible diet of mostly fast food and frozen stuff since we moved to a place in Pacifica with a non-cooking roommate and no working stove.

What about Masculine Conditioning?

The long term effects of Masculine Conditioning on me have been truly remarkable. I ran across my old photo album and finally saw the guy I used to be, a long haired geeky femme boi in purple Oxford shirts and corduroy pants. For the last couple of years since I wrote it, I have completely and totally transformed into a biker metal head dominant without even noticing the change much as it was going on. Which is exactly how Masculine Conditioning was designed to work. 

The nudges are so tiny in the moment that you barely even notice it. I grew a beard without intending to after MC-6, I got sick for a week and simply failed to shave, and when I shaved it out, I just found myself leaving the goatee and moustache. I clicked on the show that looked interesting and found myself watching Sons of Anarchy and it turned out to be really good all the way through. And when my beard grew in it was blonde, just like Charlie Hunnam's... The effects of MC-2: Manly Media Bubble shape my choice of music and TV programming to this day leading me to prefer heavy metal over my previous diet of John Mayer and Counting Crows.

Subtle effects of MC-3: Peer Pressure Masculinity are sometimes detectable in my program, such as finding the AA message of a scruffy guy who manspreads in the meeting to be unusually compelling or noticing myself mirroring his gestures MC-5 style, or Butch seeing a guy with an unusually masculine gender expression in the gym and then deciding to copy the exercises he's doing not because of his exercise form 

Typical MC-7 closet: organized by the subconscious with the most manly clothes at the most convenient locations.

And putting my stuff away in a new closet, I noticed that my subconscious mind automatically sorted the clothing by manliness and put the most manly stuff at the left and right hand spots.... which is exactly the behavior specified in the text of MC-7: Dress. A file I never explicitly tranced to, that was completed over 2 years ago! I am *awed* by the power and effectiveness of the system that fairly advanced code that was written so long ago is intact and running in my mind still. and it's designed not to be noticed. so, how much more am I missing?

Manly Dress and Grooming

This month's free file is a blast from the past, the first dress and grooming file I ever wrote back in 2015. NOTE: Masculine Conditioning users should use MC-7: Dress instead as this file is not compatible with Masculine Conditioning and is much less powerful.  This file is meant to work with Weightlifting and Stretching Compulsion and similar files.

Manly Dress and Grooming

You find that your drive to be Butch 

is growing stronger and more powerful,

and that the part of your mind 

that is dedicated to manhood

comes simply and naturally 

to the front of your mind,

filling you with 

a simple enjoyment of living 

whenever you do the things 

that make you look and act

more like the real man you want to become

every waking moment of every day.

You may notice it, 

Every time you pass a mirror,

that our most manly self comes out 

and judges the way you look,

and will only stop grooming when it is satisfied

that you are completely presentable

and have dressed and look like a Real Man.

Your butch side takes great pleasure 

in grooming you to perfection,

keeping your face shaved, 

teeth brushed, and hair combed,

and doing all the other things 

that make you presentable in the world.

You may notice it now, that

whenever you are naked in the mirror,

that you have an irresistible desire

to pose like a bodybuilder 

and check out your progress

and that seeing your progress arouses you

making your penis spring to attention,

filling with blood until it is rock hard

growing longer and thicker, out of control

getting bigger and harder every day

until it grows to the size of a donkey cock.

You may notice it, 

that whenever you make decisions about clothing,

that you find yourself considering 

only the masculine options,

the most masculine part of you 

always comes out to chose your clothing

and that you become more and more thrilled 

and filled with masculinity and sexual arousal 

whenever you think about 

choosing a more masculine outfit,

and whenever you give in and obey the desire, 

that the thrill keeps growing 

and makes you feel so good

that you never want to wear 

anything other than your most manly clothes.

You love to show off your body,

and you find yourself choosing

clothing that shows off your muscles

and makes your tattoos visible to the world.

You feel best in camo, leather, and bleachers

and anything else that makes you look like a REAL MAN.

You find yourself dressing appropriately 

for the weather and your expected situation,

but the more you find yourself succumbing 

to the urge to express your macho, manly side

with every detail of your dress and grooming

the more you like how you look and feel,

the better you feel about yourself.

You just can't help yourself:

Your mind accepts it, fully and completely, 

because it's simply the way you are now.

This is a blessing that you have no desire to resist 

and no power to stop. 

The more your mind and body change 

the more you become convinced 

that this is the person you always wanted to be, 

and the more motivated you become 

to listen to this file over and over again, 

reprogramming your mind and body, 

so that you can become the hung, 

masculine and sexy man that you want to be. 

And every time you finish grooming yourself,

you will feel the need for a little strech.

Strech one muscle and relax, and let your mind clear.

And whenever you finish streching,

you find that your mind is focused and relaxed.

Focused and relaxed and ready to move on

to whatever your next frame of mind needs to be.

Foot Orgasm

Foot Orgasm

Did you know that

the soles of your feet

have as many nerves

as your genitals do?

And that it's quite possible

for you to have an orgasm

from stimulation of the feet

Without need for your genitals

to be involved for that?

Well, if if you are turned on

by the idea of having

a foot orgasm for yourself

You downloaded the right file.

So just lay back, relax

and listen to my voice and

Pretty soon you won't

be able to resist orgasm

Whenever someone rubs

your feet the right way.

[FAILING TO RESIST TRANCER]

You want to be able to orgasm

From stimulation of your feet.

The very idea of it turns you on.  

Just thinking about the pleasure

radiating up your legs

As your partner rubs your foot

makes you SO sexually aroused

that you want to experience it

Over and over again.  

You have probably had many orgasms

From the stimulation of your genitals.

So your body clearly knows how to cum

From that kind of stimulation.

And maybe you have even

come to climax from your ass

or through your nipples before,

Or maybe just played with

someone who could…

So you know that orgasm

is a thing of the mind avaliable

to you from any body part

sensitive enough to feel pleasure.

So why should it suprise you

that some people can cum

Just from having a partner

Rub, suck, or tickle their feet?

Or even that some people say that

Foot orgasms are the best orgasms.

To them, a good foot rub feels SO good

that they would choose it over oral sex.

Lucky them, huh?

To feel so good from something so simple   

You want to be just like them, don't you?

Yeah, that's why you're going to

Listen to this file over and over

Until your subconscious mind

learns to give you a mind blowing

Better than sex climax every time

That a partner rubs your feet.

You see, having a foot orgasm

Is just like having any other orgasm.

First, you become aroused

by the prospect of having a foot rub,

and your body responds

By making your feet more and more

sensitive to sexual pleasure.

And as your partner stimulates

your feet, you feel the pleasure

and the pleasure makes you horny

Horny to have an orgasm from it.

And the hornier you get

from the anticipation of an orgasm,

The more pleasure you feel

In your feet from the foot rub,

and the more sexually pleasurable

That sensation becomes to you,

And as you approach an orgasm,

You begin to resist the urge to let go

and surrender to the orgasm.

And all your subconscious has to do

is make you fail to resist that urge

And, pretty soon, the pleasure

begins radiate up your legs

To your genitals making them tingle

With pleasure and sexual arousal.

That feeling of being ready to climax,

Spreading from your genitals outwards,

Filling your whole body with pleasure.

Making your feet SO much more sensitive

To sexual pleasure than before.

So sensitive that the slightest touch

will send you over the edge

into a shuddering, uncontrollable orgasm

That radiates through your whole body

with a shocking intensity as you climax,

and the orgasm just keeps going and going

For as long as the stimulation lasts.

If you're a man, you may notice

that your penis gets hard and leaks.

Or if you're a woman, you may find yourself

Getting unusually wet down there.

For some people it feels SO good that

they just can't help themselves and squirt.

But it doesn't really matter much

Whether or not you actually ejaculate.

You still feel that same intense orgasm,

So just relax and let your mind drift

Into a nice, deep comfortable trance.

All the distractions are fading away

Leaving you totally focused on my voice

Lulling you deeper and deeper.  

So deep! So suggestible!

Shirtless Summer

Ditch the shirt this summer! Makes being shirtless in public give you an exhibitionist thrill and sexual pleasure from being bare chested in sun and wind.  Good display file for jocks after Weightlifting and Stretching Compulsion / Hypnotic Steroids or entry level exhibitionist file to go with Shameless and Piss Exhibitionist. Contains safeties for sunscreen use and social appropriateness.

Shirtless Summer

Just relax now,
And focus on my voice
And let your mind slip
into a nice, deep, comfortable trance.
And let all the distractions
Fade away from your mind
as you find yourself
Growing more and focused
On the sound of my voice
Until you are totally focused on the voice
Lulling you deeper and deeper
Into a deep and perfect hypnotic sleep.
And you feel the pleasure of hypnosis
Washing over you,
washing away your consciousness
Taking you deeper and deeper
Into that nice, deep, comfortable trance.
It feels so good to be hypnotized.
So comfortable! So safe! So very relaxed!
Listening to my sexy voice
And letting it shape your mind.
And it feels so good to obey the voice
And let your mind just drain away
That you find yourself listening
Over and over again until the ideas
Are thoroughly engrained in your mind
And you automatically obey them
Whenever the time is right.
So sleep now,
and let my voice shape your mind.

I bet you are looking forward to summer.
Because shirtless season is great, huh?
Being outside in the warm sunshine,
Stripping off your shirt
Nothing between you and the sky
Except a thin layer of sunscreen.
Feeling the sun on on your shoulders
The cool summer breeze against your chest.

Sometimes, it's almost erotic.
The way the breeze caresses your nipples
And your nipples get hard and sensitive
And you find yourself
getting just a little aroused
By that wonderful sensation. 
And for a moment you are aware
of how sexy you feel whenever
You have your shirt off in public.

Maybe you are the kind of guy
who gets an exhibitionististic thrill
out of the fact that people can see you,
Strutting around with your shirt off.
Does it turn you on to think that
People might get horny looking at
Your beautiful shirtless torso
As you walk by?
Does it make your dick hard
to imagine That you are so sexy
that people lust after your body
Every time you display it?

Maybe that's why you take your shirt off
Whenever you can get away with it.

Maybe that's why you get sexually aroused
Rubbing suntan lotion all over your body,
Making a show of putting it on in public,
Rubbing it all over your bare torso
For everyone to see?

Or maybe you are the kind of guy
Who likes to be macho and
It just makes you feel so manly
To strut around bare chested
In the hot summer sun.
Only men have the privilege
Of displaying their bodies that way,
And perhaps you feel like you are
a prime specimen of manhood
Who ought to be on display.
It just feels so good to show off.
So confident and natural and right
To take pride in your body,
Perfect and sexy, just the way it is.
Worthy of admiration
by the world at large.

There is a certain sexiness in a guy
Who is totally comfortable in his own body
and free from any trace of shame about it.
Are you man enough for that?

Or maybe you are the kind of guy
Who just can't stand wearing a shirt.
Shirts can be very uncomfortable,
you know.
Tight, and hot, and restrictive.
If the collar is too tight and stuffy,
Or the tag in the back is stiff
and scratchy against your skin.
The way the fabric sticks
To your skin when you sweat.
If you are that kind of guy
It's just so much more comfortable
To do without the shirt
as much as possible in the summer,
Anywhere you are allowed to do do
That you pretty much only wear a shirt
When it's socially mandatory
for the situation you are in. 

You make rational decisions about
the appropriateness of your dress
For the weather and the situation,
And you are perfectly willing and able to
Put your shirt on if you get cold or
If the situation requires it.
But you would rather be shirtless
Because that's what's most comfortable
For a guy who hates shirts that way.

There are so many good reasons
For a man to go bare chested
In the heat of the summertime
That it's no surprise if all these reasons
Apply to you and more.

So you better stock up on sunblock,
Because this year you’re showing some skin
And you have decided to get deep and
that natural upper body tan you get
From walking around with your shirt off
As much as you possibly can.

It just feels so good to you to
Be stripped to the waist
in the summertime now,
So sexy! So Masculine! So cool!
That you have already decided to
Listen to the file over and over again
So that you can feel the pleasure
Of surrendering to the sexy voice
Trancing deeper and deeper every time
Until you routinely strip off your shirt
Whenever you can get away with it
And walk around shirtless in public
Whenever it is appropriate to do so.





Until the weather turns cold again
When you lose interest in the file
For the duration of the winter
Only to crave it again next spring.
On those first warm days of spring
You always experience an intense desire
To listen to this file again.
Because it feels so good to you now
That once you have had a shirtless summer,
you’re gonna want to do it again and again.

Fetish Punk

Fetish Punk

Just focus on my voice and relax

trancing deeper and deeper

with every word you hear.

So Comfortable! So Relaxed!

So very very suggestible…

Just listen, obey, and relax.

And as you listen and relax

you find your mind opening up

more and more with every word

growing ready for a change

that your subconscious mind

has been wanting for a while now.

Maybe you’ve always kinda liked

listening to punk music,

Maybe you like the irreverent attitude,

Maybe you just like the punk style.

Or maybe, just maybe,

the way it captures the alienation

and rage of the marginalized

is really relatable for you.

But, whatever your reasons,

you have chosen to become a punk,

and from now on

your subconscious mind is going to

make you do all the things that it takes

to become the kinky, streetwise

fetish punk you’ve always wanted to be.

Now focus on your breath for a moment,

and find yourself drifting deeper into trance.

Breathe in… Breathe out…

and let your mind grow blank and empty

as all the distractions fade away.

Breathe in… Breathe out…and find yourself

totally focused on my voice as it lulls you

into a deep and perfect hypnotic sleep.

Sleep now, and let my voice fill your mind

with visions of yourself as a kinky fetish punk.

It really turns you on to think of yourself

all dressed up in radical punk gear:

Worn out leather jackets with spikes,

Wild T-shirts for obscure punk bands,

Spiked belts, combat boots, bleachers

or crusty patched up jeans…

Wild colored hair, or maybe a mohawk.

Just thinking about being dressed up

like a hardcore street punk

gives you such a powerful erotic thrill

that you find punk fashion taking over

your entire sexual fantasy life.

And it’s so much better to fantasize

when your fantasy is about punks,

because it makes you SO much more aroused

than any other fantasy ever does

because punks are free to indulge

in all the most debauched fetishes

without ever caring if society approves.

And the more you think about

being a kinky, debauched fetish punk

the more sexually aroused you become,

and the more you want to become a punk:

Listen to punk music

Dress like a punk

Adopt the punk attitude

and be free from the burdens of caring

what other people think about you.

From now on, you will find yourself

more and more drawn to becoming a punk.

Listening to punk music more and more

until you lack any interest at all

in listening to any other genre of music

Because punk music is the only music

that you can relate to the feelings of.

Because only punk music can set you free.

The more you listen to this trance the more you want to be a punk.

And the more you want to be a punk, the more you listen to the trance.

And the more you listen to punk music,

the more you find yourself thinking like a punk

hanging out with punks, going to punk shows

and generally becoming more and more

obsessed with the punk culture and scene

as you find yourself adopting their ways,

copping a punk attitude whenever you can,

taking on their mannerisms more and more

walking and talking like a freaky street punk

and losing all interest in what other people think.

Over time, you will find your style drifting

into a more and more extreme punk style.

Maybe you start out dressing up for sex,

and enjoying the kinky thrill of being

totally disinhibited about your fetishes

whenever you are dressed in punk gear.

And the more you dress punk for sex,

the more powerful your punk fetish becomes,

and the more kinky your fantasies get

until your whole sexuality revolves around

being a kinky fetish punk with an attitude.

But pretty soon you begin to escalate

to wearing your punk gear out in the streets.

Because it’s just so sexually thrilling for you

to go out into the world dressed up

as a punk rock wild child.

At first, it it only takes a little fashion statement:

a T-shirt, a hairstyle, maybe your choice of boots.

But, over time, you find yourself wanting more.

Going out in full punk outfits for a bigger thrill,

trumping yourself day by day,

getting more and more extreme with your

new punk look so you can maintain the thrill:

Getting a mohawk, piercing your body parts,

maybe even getting punk tattoos in a visible place...

Feeling more and more free to be yourself

the more extreme your punk look becomes.

Feeling less and less inhibited about exploring

the outer reaches of your sexuality

the more punk you dress and act in your daily life.

You chose to listen to this trance

and become a kinky fetish punk.

And the more you listen to this trance

the more certain you become

that the punk lifestyle is right for you.

And the more you find yourself

looking, dressing, talking and acting

like the kinky fetish punk you want to be

the more you want to listen to this trance

over and over again until it changes you

completely and totally

into a freaky punk rocker,

who only listens to punk music,

hangs out in the punk scene, and

dresses punk 24/7 whenever possible.

Because by becoming a punk

You have chosen to free yourself

from the tyranny of the normal.

And the more punk you are,

the freer and more authentic you feel

and the less you worry

about what the so-called normal people think

because the normies are so fucked up

that only your fellow punk’s opinions

matter to you now.